Hello Dear Readers!
Yes, it is I! Author/Blogger/Foodie taking another stab at blogging about real life.
Life has been busy. Emotional and well, all over the place.
Changes here and there.
As I have stated in my more recent blogs. I have begun taking a serious approach to the skills of cooking and baking.
Wins and fails, the best experience is action based. Action is what I’ve been taking. Baking like mad when I’m free in the evenings. (possibly gain an extra pound or two.😅)
Bigger changes that I can’t control are affecting me and my entire family.
My Dads health is declining. He’s a diabetic, type 2, who suffered a heart attack last year. He’s been slowly declining for the past year. In and out of the hospital. The entire family has been coming and going to visit him, helping him through this.
It’s a bittersweet experience. Seeing a loved one die over a period of time. No control over how things go. All you can do is enjoy what time you can with him as he slips further away with every week. Mentally it’s extremely difficult seeing the change, the life literally seep out of your Dad. The days were Dad used to drive me to school are over. Now we drive him to his many dr appointments. At this time he can barely walk at all. It’s heart breaking.
I don’t recall if I told you, dear reader, I am in therapy. For healing from the past and now for support to make it through this incredibly difficult time.
With the future forever changing, and my Dad’s possible funeral being any time in the next 6 months. I have no idea how I will be handling life. Right now it’s about feeling the pain as it comes, being with Dad when I can, and learning to surround myself with support and projects.
(I am 100% crying while typing this out. It’s healthy, to let tears flow when you can. Instead of bottling things up all the time. It sucks. But, it does help.) My tissue box just ran out again. 😫
Love Life:
I am still dating~
GL and I have been through a few rough patches. Challenges have made us both grow as individuals. The big question we both face now is, how will this bring us closer to God and together?
As GL and I date, I find myself wondering more about marriage, family life and if I’m ready for a change like that.
Obviously, I’m thinking way ahead and overthinking it all. However, that is something that has been on my mind no matter how much I try not to consider it. It’s a personal struggle of mine to take life, one day at a time. The idea is lovely, relaxed and without worry.
Reality is, it’s hard for me to take life that slow. I’m used to rushing about like a crazy chicken without a head. I don’t particularly enjoy that rushed lifestyle. But, it’s familiar. Thus, comfortable. Slowing down in moments that really matter, is another goal I’d like to attempt to introduce into my this life year.
GL and I are figuring it out together. One day at a time.
I am also learning a great deal about myself. I didn’t realize how much of a hopeless romantic I was until I started dating. It’s been a real struggle with having a long distance relationship at this time. A hug from ones boyfriend is not the same as a hug from your brothers or sisters. Hugs are amazing no matter what. But, not the same.
💕 I did get a surprise in the mail recently that made it easier to deal with the distance. I’d still love a hug in person, but for now I will keep these sweet gifts close. The small key in the bottle, gosh how flippin adorable and sweet is that? 💕 I look at them everyday, they make me smile.
Don’t worry, I try my best to take care of my boyfriend as well. A relationship is a two way street. Love letters, encouragement, and of course, shared dreams and hopes.
We are learning quite a lot about each other and our different love languages. I grow impatient waiting for another chance for us to be together. 3 months is a long time to be apart.
Dance:
I looooooove dancing. Mind you I’m speaking about Waltz, salsa, cha cha, and swing. The more traditional dances. Hip hop, is not my thing. At all. HAHA
At the moment I am helping a wonderful Dance instructor Jackie with her classes once a month. We are doing beginner swing and waltz.
Just for me, I am taking private lessons with Jackie learning Cha Cha~ I went so far as to buy a special fringe skirt for extra hip swishing fun.
💕💕Thanks for my Christmas gift Serena~ 💕💕
PS. I love dancing, but my hips aren’t used to being so silky and loose. It’s a challenge for sure! 😆💃 #sorehipsfromdance
PS. After years of dreaming and praying for a boyfriend who loves to dance, it has happened. GL has taken me dancing a few different times now. I loved dancing with him.
Food:
In general I’ve been doing my best not to turn baking and cooking into a chore. So I keep it spontaneous when possible.
Example yesterday after canceling plans to go shopping, I decided some homemade Oreos and brownies sounded lovely.
Then I cooked myself some panko crusted pork chops with a large heaping of green beans for dinner. I crunched up some Jalapeño chips tossing them into the panko crumbs. Talk about a delicious spicy pop of flavor.
And it all turned out wonderful in the cooking and baking expedition. 🎉😎🎉
Here’s a few other things I’ve made recently.
heart pizza with homemade crust.
Street tacos, delish!
Writing:
I have done precious little writing. Even writing this blog has been hard. My mind has been muddled lately. I get the urge to write often, but when I sit down to type, words avalanche in my brain. It’s hard to keep thoughts straight enough to write anything right now.
Plus with a desk job for 8 hrs a day, sitting down afterwards to write even longer has been a huge struggle for me. I either fall asleep or sit there trying to organize the mess of words flooding my brain.
This doesn’t stop me entirely. It’s only a temporary pause in my major writing. I have plenty of stories left to write. They will come, eventually.
With the baking and cooking this has been my creative outlet so far this year. It’s fun, and more active.
And that about sums it up, Dear Readers.
Life has it’s up and downs for all of us. I am grateful for my life, family and friends more now than ever.
Take care of yourselves, if you aren’t, please take this as a sign to start. Small steps, eating one extra veggies a day. More sunshine, water and fun. Do something small that makes you smile and laugh. That will help one day at a time.
2 books down, cookies made, and who knows how many more to come.
Thank you for reading until the end. As a self published Author/blogger any and all support is appreciated!
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Write on~
Cecilia
